I'm Olivia.
New Politics. Lindsey Way. Tattoos. Mindless Self Indulgence. Piercings. My Chemical Romance. Concerts. Boobs. Blood. Gore. Horror movies. Zayn Malik. Suicidal. Modifications. Self harmer. Blink 182. Hair dye. Cats. Marilyn Manson. Razor blades. Rocky Horror Picture Show. Zombies. Cat Power. Trashy. Classy.

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january 22, 2014; 9:51 pm.

fuck you for making me feel like this.

january 21, 2014; 2:07 pm.

i bought a electronic hookah yesterday. actually, i bought two, but i gave one to my friend since dirty blonde is her favorite one. then, after work, i went to my friend John’s house and smoked some weed and ate some tacos and had a damn good time.

but now i’m not high and i’ve come to find that Jake almost killed himself last night.

i’m so worried about him, but at this point, there’s nothing i can do but be there for him. but it’s getting really hard, because he says he wants to commit because i’m not with him, and that’s a lot of pressure for me. and if something happens to him, it’ll be my fault. i know it will be.

maybe i just need to subtract myself from his life. i think he’ll be a lot better off if he just moves on and goes back to doing what he loves, like throwing house parties and raves.

january 20, 2014; 12:31 pm.

i think i’m going to break up with Jesse.

he came over tonight and we hung out like we do most nights, but i don’t know, it just felt weird tonight. like, he makes me laugh and we have a good time, but by 12:00 i was already ready for him to go, and normally i don’t want him to leave even when he stays until 2 in the morning.

he’s getting kinda clingy, which is something i don’t handle very well. and tonight he asked my sister if she wanted to see him backhand me, which i don’t think he would, but like, what the fuck? i guess i knew this would happen eventually. i really like Jesse, and i love spending time with him usually, and i think that if i could get past all of this shit, we could be really great together, but there’s just so much getting in the way. and he’s not the one i’m willing to fight for.. and it’s kind of pointless to be in a relationship if i know it won’t last, right? so i think it’s for the best if i end things with Jesse now. i just don’t know how to.

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You didn’t break me.
It’s true, you hurt me
You damaged and disposed of me.
But I am not broken.

It’s true, you hurt me.
But that’s my own fault
And I am not broken
I just gave you a little too much control over me.

It’s my own fault
That I even got hurt at all.
I just gave you a little too much control over me,
When I had absolutely no control over you.

You didn’t break me.
It’s true, you hurt me.
You damaged and disposed of me.
But I am not broken.